Day Out of the Bed, Not a Complete Waste

Today was better.  I got wrapped up in A Rainbow Tulip stuff and it kept me out of the bed.  I got confirmation that I should talk to the job coach before giving it up completely.  Not a bad day.

I have two little boys on my couch now and I want to be a good mommy to them.  I really do.  Good mommies do not stay in the bed all day, every day.

I guess my day today was kind of like the effects of the picture above.  The blackness of the depression loomed all around me.  I could see a goal in mind (working at home, really), but it’s only some fuzzy dream right now.

If all the days could go like today, I guess things would be better.  It did take a tremendous amount of effort, but I was able to be out of bed.  I didn’t get anything done around the house, but that’s not the end of the world at this point.

I really appreciate all the support I get from my friends about the business.  I guess I don’t really feel the support throughout and I worry my family thinks I’m just wasting money.  Maybe I am, but I am serious about the business.   Nothing else has worked out for me employment-wise, so I guess I just feel like I’ve got to do something on my own.

*sigh*

I feel like Eeyore tonight.

 


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