Yesterday was an 8 on my mood scale. That’s the highest my mood has been since I started tracking it, about five weeks ago.
Tuesday, which was a 6-day, I dyed my hair blue. You can see a picture on my manifesto page. I’m certain that my family thinks I’m nuts, but I love it! Be-Bop loves it too, but Rock Steady took a little adjusting to get used to it. I guess the way I look at it, if I’m going to dye it at all, it might as well be an outrageous color. The timing of it is a little questionable, as I know my family takes great stock in having me look appropriate for special events and we’re going to a wedding a week from Saturday. But, as I said, I love it and I know that should be all that matters. We’ll see if I cave to pressure or leave it. And honestly, I’d love it whether or not I was manic. The manic part factors in because of the timing…were I not manic, I would have probably waited till post-wedding.
I’m knitting lots, but I have yet to finish anything. The piece pictured above will, I hope, be a blanket for a doll. My super-cool friend taught me to knit a couple of months ago and I love it! It’s kind of a running funniness, though, among those I’ve been around lately that I have yet to finish any projects. I’ve probably started 7 or 8 things and I have yet to finish anything. Luckily, the yarns I’ve picked so far are really sturdy and can be re-used.
There’s some education that needs to happen about bipolar disorder in the general population. Manic does not equal psychotic. I’ve been psychotic plenty in my lifetime, but I’ve been manic plenty more. Too focused generally equals mania. And depressed plenty, too. I swing back and forth fairly quickly. Manic can be irritable and look a little like depression, too. Most of the time since I was first diagnosed, my family called my psychotic episodes “manic” episodes and they’re not the same thing at all. But whatever. I’m just so thankful for the education I’ve gained about my illness at the Local Friendly Mental Ward. Those folks are simply awesome. Someone there quoted a statistic that it’s believed that 1 in 3 people in the general population have some form of bipolar disorder. I’m definitely not alone and I’m thankful to have been diagnosed early in life.
My meds have been adjusted and today has been a 7, I think. I slept better last night than I have in a couple of weeks. Generally, the more soundly I can sleep, the easier it is to come off the high. Luckily, I’m with myself enough to not be paranoid and to not be on a spending spree.
At any rate, that’s what’s going on with me.