Back to Basics, Need Less Sleep

At the Friendly Local Mental Ward, they have you make a goal for the day.

The point is to feel a sense of accomplishment. I know this. It can be a simple goal, or it can be a big goal. I would feel better getting more done, but I know I have to start small. So here goes:

Goal for the day for Wednesday, June 1, 2011: do fifteen uninterrupted minutes of yoga
make a necklace for the Etsy page
wash the dishes

I am not good at this. I wasn’t good at it when I was psychotic, I’m not good at it when I’m relatively sane. Setting just one goal requires decision-making skills of some sort, skills I don’t really have. Here goes, again:

Goal for the day for Wednesday, June 1, 2011: Take Stella outside first thing when I wake up and work with her then.

…But wait, there’s more to the exercise…

What three things will I do to help me accomplish this goal?
1) Set an alarm clock
2) Get up when the alarm clock goes off
3) Take my meds when I get up

…And still, there’s more:

What can get between me and my goal?
1) Failure to remember to turn alarm clock on
2) Failure to remember to turn volume of alarm clock up
3) Negative self-talk

And really, 4) Too sleepy to get up!

Because that’s what my life is about right now: Sleep, sleep and more sleep. I sleep whenever I stop moving, which is a really bad thing. I can’t move all the time. Now doesn’t count because it’s bedtime anyway, but at 3 pm while I was at work today, I found myself fighting sleep. I came home from the pool yesterday and slept from 3 pm till 7:15 this morning with just a couple of breaks in between sleep. It cannot go on this way, but at this point I am too close to my pdoc appointment to worry with a drop-in visit. But now that I stop to think about it, I did spend an awful lot of time in the recliner the last time I was on Effexor.

Who am I kidding?

Goal for the day for Wednesday, June 1, 2011: Take Stella outside first thing when I wake up and work with her then
Nap ONLY when the boys nap, after lunch, for no more than two hours.

What three things will I do to help me accomplish this goal?
1) something physical to get me going in the morning, like maybe 15 minutes of yoga and then working with Stella
2) stay off the couch and only sit down for brief breaks between chores. No sitting in front of tv!
3) take the boys somewhere during the day, destination TBD in the morning

What can get between me and my goal?
1) negative self-talk
2) too much sitting

There. That’s better.


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