I suppose it’s all in the priorities.  For the last few months, my priority has been recovery for myself and spending time as I can with my family.  It’s been a bumpy year; there are broken friendships– some that may recover, some that probably needed to be broken anyway.  I’ve still got one apology I intend to make and there’s one secret that’s not a secret anymore.  I’m learning to let go of some really bad things I’ve held on to for a really long time and that’s a daily struggle.  But as my doctor said at my last appointment, when we go through something tough and come out stronger on the other side, the experience is really of value.  

I’ve made some really good habits and discoveries in the last few months.  Peppermint tea at bedtime is a luxury I hope I’ll keep up for a really long time!  Journaling on paper has been hugely helpful– I have something like ten journals, different shapes and sizes and colors, I’ve started all in the last six months or so and it’s wonderful to pick up whichever one I’m feeling like and just vent to my heart’s content.  We joined a gym and it’s good to get some treadmill time in a few times a week.

I go to Pre-Service Orientation (a.k.a. PSO) for my AmeriCorps *VISTA term on Tuesday.  I’m really looking forward to it– one of the bonuses of signing on for a second term so long from my first term is that I get to repeat PSO!  Last time, I got involved with a really fun group of people and I’m hoping to make some friends again this time, too.  I came away from PSO in Chicago feeling really good about national service.  VISTA Campus, an online resource for VISTAs, didn’t exist in 2007 and I think it will make a difference in keeping up my morale this time around.

J is fantastic, as usual.  I am really glad I get to spend my life with him.  He overlooks my idiosyncrasies and he tells me he loves me, that I’m beautiful, every day.  I don’t deserve it.

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