It’s been a rough week. I had this idyllic picture of what summertime for our household would look like. Trips to the museum, to the aquarium, to the park, playing at home…it was going to be great. Then, reality set in. Reality is that I’m on disability for a reason. I have days when there [...]
A Long Time Ago
May 15, 2012 By Leave a Comment
A long time ago, I was incredibly sociable. A long time ago, I felt like an intelligent person. A long time ago, I thought friendship lasted forever. A long time ago, I thought home was a place. But then… A long time ago, I falsely thrived on chaos. A long time ago, I refused to [...]
19 March 2012
When God Left Me Alone
March 19, 2012 By Leave a Comment
Porter and Mommy around 3 weeks old That sunny day in late August of 2006, I really, really did not think I would have a baby that day. It wasn’t time for him to come. He was due October 2. I’d been going about my business as usual that day, taking our dog Tinkerbell [...]
13 March 2012
Depression is Ugly
March 13, 2012 By Leave a Comment
Depression is the ugly beast that creeps up on me when I least expect it. Last week I was relatively stable: I did my yoga most days, I watched what I ate. Then all of a sudden, about 36 hours ago, BAM: it almost hurt to move and my anxiety was in overdrive. I just [...]
7 March 2012
Less Real Responsibility = More Pressure to Get Better
March 7, 2012 By Leave a Comment
As I wrote about last week, the boys are in daycare full-time now. This means I’ve got 8 hours of my day to do with as I please, relatively speaking. The point is not for me to become a lady of leisure. That’s not the point at all. I desperately miss feeling like I contribute [...]
